Journal #20: Reminding myself what I'm blogging for
I've been hyper-aware of the fact that I haven't made a proper blog post in a minute. It's made me wonder: am I blogging to impress, or blogging to decompress?
I think getting caught up in web development and getting my personal site off the ground--all worthwhile efforts--has made me superimpose the same mindset onto my blog. But first and foremost, this blog serves as a log of my own thoughts and feelings. It isn't meant to be a platform I'm trying to market online through webrings, guestbooks, and general networking around the indie web.
I guess I've been daunted by my own thoughts and feelings lately. For the past few weeks I've been stuck between a difficult move back to my childhood home and work being a general slog. I'm too burnt out to undertake my usual creative projects like writing or drawing/painting1, which is part of why I've been so fixated on building my website: I can throw together some HTML/CSS in 15 minutes and instantly see results.
I'm off the next two days. My plan tomorrow is to do a minimal amount of chores, then treat myself to coffee from a local cafe (last week it was an iced Coconut Cream Pie latte) and hunker down at the public library for awhile.
I love libraries! They're so relaxing. I usually ask for a study room and chill by myself. I want to try and get some writing done and maybe even do some drawing, too. One afternoon writing won't be enough to get back into gear, but I hope it'll kickstart my creative flow.
I definitely want to start getting back into a personal routine, for my physical/mental health as well as my creative pursuits. On top of stretching/meditating, I want to make regular efforts to write/draw. I've had a lot of success doing blogging sprints; this post I'm writing now started out as a 5 minute sprint!2
I think I'll try to extend the concept to writing sprints and drawing sprints. It's difficult finding chunks of time to sit down and write/make art during the work week. That will probably have to wait until my days off. But that doesn't mean I'm stuck not writing or drawing at all. I just need to change my approach, and adjust my expectations accordingly. And, hey--if I do end up becoming a father, it'll be good practice for squeezing in some personal time dedicated to hobbies, lol.
I guess that's it. No big announcements or essays or anything. Just some thoughts. It feels good to post again, at the very least.
✘ Posted on — 07/24/25
✘ Last modified — 1 month ago
✘ Link — https://blog.xavierhm.com/journal-20-reminding-myself-what-im-blogging-for
Footnotes
Which sucks because I've been wanting to plan out a couple original novel ideas for months now; I've also been getting active on krita-artists.org↩
